His skin was smooth and soft, everything mine should have been. Thats the bad thing about sex, it brings out my pores. If it's good sex. And hell yes. This was good sex. In indiscribable climax (him after me) followed by a calm halt.
Entering me, he started a rythum for both of us- his skin so close to mine i could feel it grow. We moved. Oh god, we moved. Slow at first, then faster, faster faster til i thought i'd cry with the feelings he created.
His lips moved. To my neck, breasts, stomach, hips. Lowwer. I could feel his warmth flood me. I knew he'd kiss me after. But that didnt matter, what mattered was he cared enough abou
I only ever want to talk about you-
I cant without feeling dead.
I'll never be enough for you,
I'll never have that hair.
Look at me,
And tell me you don't feel that.
Don't tell me,
Your not worth fighting for.
Don't tell me,
I'm worth anything more.
Ode to you, the possesive one.
Stop thinking no calls mean tragidy.
Just friends.
Thats what we are.
Just friends.
But nothing more.
Less enthuseastic, another plan...
Thinking about this, more than I should.
But We'er just friends-
Thats what we are.
Just friends,
but nothing more.
Take my hands-we'er never coming back, Take
my hands if you think we might last.
You know we'er ment to be...
Just friends.
Thats what we are.
Just friends,
But nothing more.
Straight answers I'll never get,
I'm sorry I haven't asked you yet,
What you think and what you feel
Maybe to you this isn't real
I think you think I'm going insane but to me it's all the same.
Its no big surprise I don't mind,
I can't mind with out a mind.
The way this is happening makes me mad,
Every moment of every day ends up making me sad
If you go,
I'll be able to see just how much this has been affecting me.
No-ones listening,
their just missing
the point to all this,
just go,
I can't miss what was never mine,
just sit back, relax,
take a detour,
its no chore.
I'll just sit be me, no-one will notice
I'll kill you for all this hurt
Wait, I'll kick around in the dirt
Till I find my place
I just can't stick the pace of all this
It's to fast, I'm, gonna forget the past
Wait at the side lines for your call
And if it doesn't come I'm gonna fall
Outta sight, outta mind
And if you don't mind I'll go right now
Back to the place where I feel safe
Where no-one can feel what I feel
Or know what I know
You make me sick to the bone
Why don't you change your tone?
Sure, you say I'm stupid, obsessive, and I can't be depressive.
Just wait, you'll see
I'm on the run,
You'll never catch me.
Billy and the pineapple by waste-your-life, literature
Literature
Billy and the pineapple
I think ill go for a walk
maybe in the rain
let the water take over me
flood out all the pain.
Chorus---
Because you could never take me where i wanted to go
even when you were mine
you were my brightist star
until you lost your shine
It doesnt matter how i think
it doesnt matter what i need
if youve disided on this
im not gonna beg of plead.
(Repeat twice)
I have a headache, but it's not in my head,
Aches and pains, but it's not in my head,
Pain in my heart, but it's not in my head,
You broke mine, but it's not in my head,
What's in my head is you kissing him,
What's in my head is you wanting him,
What's in my head is you fucking him,
What's in my head is you….
Chorus
My life is like a jigsaw puzzle, yet I've got a scrabble piece,
Friends who were my building blocks and now my property has seized
To be a form of construction and I didn't even sign the lease,
My life is like a jigsaw puzzle, yet I've got a scrabble piece.
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I'm at that stage of my life where it feels like it's cluedo,
We're all the ones holding the weapon, violent innuendo,
The dagger's in my back, monopoly, don't go pass go,
Don't collect you fifty pence, life is just a chance so,
Check community chest, and don't buy Mayfair,
'Cause landing on that place is
My love for you
Is transparent,
Not because you can see through,
Every lie I tell,
Not because it seems my love,
For you isn't there,
But because it is clear that I love you.
Ode to you, the possesive one.
Stop thinking no calls mean tragidy.
Just friends.
Thats what we are.
Just friends.
But nothing more.
Less enthuseastic, another plan...
Thinking about this, more than I should.
But We'er just friends-
Thats what we are.
Just friends,
but nothing more.
Take my hands-we'er never coming back, Take
my hands if you think we might last.
You know we'er ment to be...
Just friends.
Thats what we are.
Just friends,
But nothing more.
Ok, this is my OLD account, my new user is smack-the-bitch-up
So, if i don't reply, its cos this isnt my account anymore, but i wanted to leave it up so id have something to remeber all the time i put into this by.
The weird thing is, me and matti have been going out a few days, and its great. Really great, but its weird. Don't know how, kinda....cold? A bit distent, but i guess thats cos its only been a few days, and neither of us are used to it. I hope thats it.
I wish i could protray to some people just how upset with them i am. I no longer want to get up in the morning, but i do. My life is work. College. Eat. Always eat. I can't stop eatting. I just wanna be loved. But im not. I wanna be accepted for the music i listen to, the fact that i can knit. Why does everything have to be a struggle for the attechion of matti? Cos lets face it....If he wants to get nasty on me, if he says what he used to about nat. Ill fucking distory him.